400 miles to oblivion

"I have become convinced I am not alone here, even though I am equally sure it is simply a delusion brought upon by circumstance. I do not, for instance, remember where I found the candles, or why I took it upon myself to light such a strange pathway. Perhaps it is only for those who are bound to follow."

You know I find it more and more difficult to relate to people now, telling me about how he said this and how she said that. How their pulsing bricks insult them a lot and how they malfunction at the expense of a person's lifeline.

I find society, people, modern ideals and music.

I'll explain, being forced to be on my own for the past 5 years allows me to see everyone around me. It's impressive at how you can observe every detail of a person's life on social networking, on busses, generally sat around. Ok now I know I sound like a stalker or something so let me explain further, every person who's on a phone call yells, everyone who types practically holds their personal devices to your face so you're forced to read the bile they spew into the internet. Though whilst most look away I try (but fail) to make sense of what they write.

I find people's attitudes towards each other difficult to comprehend, the way that everyone puts on this annoying pretence of being friends as if they are posing for an invisible camera. Talking as if a copy and paste of a guide to "how to be normal in 2012," I find most people to just be set pieces. Talking heads which regurgitate whatever someone wants them to, whatever diahrea they can conjure up as a response to more garbage creating a tidal wave of complete and utter gibberish.

No one talks about anything anymore, it's all about shallow outlooks on those they know, comparing themselves to people who don't care, regurgitating things they have seen on television or in gossip magazines or in magazines or other crap dispensers.

I find society to be broken; nothing is personal to anyone anymore. No conversation is sharing an experience; no tweet is bearing the soul of anyone because they have no soul, just a blank canvas waiting to be painted on. These people are still in the womb! They have no idea what it is like to think for yourself and achieve clarity! It's all spite and tireless derailing of everything that others have built to make the world a better place! What is freedom of speech? An excuse to get back at all the 'faggots,' 'niggers' and other invalids out there (to clarify as a disclaimer, no... that's someone else's opinion not mine hence why it's in quotations.)

Why do we live in a world where people vote, not to make their lives I'll copy something I wrote on the unwashed board.

"These issues are banged out by politicians because they get votes, it satisfies the public and are an excuse to avoid talking about the future of your job or an issue that does directly affect you that you would want to hear. At the time I agreed that well this is obviously happening people care more about things that affect other people than things that immediately affect them. I mean how does gay marriage affect a heterosexual man? Unless they are campaigning to keep homosexual couples from marrying in their church which sort of makes sense, but if you are just homophobic then it has no effect on you and shouldn't sway your vote. The sad reality is that these tiny, insignificant issues sway votes...

But then I thought about it some more and went back to stage one, I've already mentioned that people will vote against their best interest to get a representative who tackles the issues they care about. I find that it goes deeper than that when you think about it... what is the point in voting? It's to get your voice across, why do you need to get your voice across and choose a party to represent your views? Because some things are going to affect you more than others. How much tax you pay for instance, where government spending goes and how you and your family are supported when it comes to the government. However, if this is the case then voting have become arse backwards in my view because people aren't voting for what immediately affects them!

If you think about what I've wrote above people will vote for homosexuals to be banned from getting hitched in a church, but what about things that effect them immediately? It's rare that I hear people who care who they vote for talk about this stuff and it's rare that the news does. Anywho down to my point, voting is meant for people to attempt to improve their own lives! Even if this was at the expense of others (such as higher tax on the rich) it would still be logical because you want the politicians to make your life better. This isn't how it works anymore, people are now voting not to make their lives better, but to make other people's lives worse. If all you care about is banning a person from doing something that has no or little effect on you then it kind of shows the broken society we live in. A world where people spitefully would vote to have their home town nuked if it meant that people couldn't have abortions.

I can't help, but feel that democracy is bad thing now I try to see it in a positive light, but to no avail. Though that is just my opinion and my opinion has gotten me thrown out of public establishments before."

I don't care if I'm alone I like it on my own, I'm free and I can think for myself! I don't want to be subjected to constantly wanting approval! I don't want to know what people do in their boring uneventful lives!

You know I came to a sad realisation the other day, imagine this scenario...

You're sat on a bus with someone you know their name and maybe said "oh are you getting off? Ok I'll stand up" or something along those lines. But you never conversed with them, never learnt anything about them... imagine after they get off the bus them going home and from that day on you getting an insight into their life. Hearing every one of their thoughts (or maybe just receiving a letter.)

Wouldn't you hate that? Well I'm living it! I have people on social networking sites who I added as "friends" because they sat in the same room with me 5 years ago! I've had more contact with them now than I ever had and I bloody hate them! Every day it's "yeah get in it's *insert whatever's "cool" here* "can't be arsed" "I hate my life because *BLAH BLAH BLAH*" "CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT WITH THE GIRLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ AND KILL ALL MY FUCKIGN BRAIN SELLZ!"

You know I could strangle these people! I don't want to know them, but this digital age makes it so! I'm tired of it really, I can't take it and it’s driving me mad!

Just take me home!