You have 29000 days to live.

Recently I had this wierd crisis where I wsa suddenly aware of how short life is, if you live up to 80 you will have lived 700800. Now when you see days as a number like that... it seems shorter and shorter the more you look at it.

You see, life is a cruel, yet giving thing people in 2012 have a better quality of life than those who lived in 1912 and they had a better quality of life than those who lived in 1812 etc. But those who live in 2112 will obviously have a better life than us so... in short you may as well have been born in 1812 for all the good it does you. The world gets better and better around you, but you cannot live long enough to see it at it's best.

It's quite funny how people say that "their day" was the best, whether "their day" was 10-100 years ago. Well they are wrong, just as you will be when you're an old fart. The fact is history confirms it the world is as hard as it is to believe, getting better and better.

The more you think on it, the crappier your position is mortality is a bitch isn't it? Irony dictates that you die of a disease that is cured and completely wiped out less than 100 years later.

Anyway in regards to myself my least favourite person on the planet...

Walking Dead episode 4 came out on PSN-SCEE last night alas this was probably my favourite episode since episode 2. This episode had a few difficult decisions to make and after finishing the episode it took me a while to get my thoughts together. I wrote my decisions down on the corrupt regualtor forums here. It's been quite fun sharing eachother's stories over the last year or so I hope anyone else who reads this can share there's.

Guess that's it for today

Bye for now

To celibrate the episode being released I think I'll have this is the song of today.

For whom the bell tolls

"Do not ask for whom the bell tolls... for when it tolls, it tolls for you!" - Chuck (The Walking Dead)

Good news everyone!

According to those lieing bastards at SCEE WD episode 4 comes out on PS3 in the EU tonight thank christ. Though knowing them... nah I'm sure they won't screw me twice...

So news; Noak found some more Walking Dead stuff it was a mini web series which... well I tore it a part in possibly the longest forum reply ever! Oh well what can you do?

There's been no significent events today... and I cannot think of anything to talk about.

I should stop wasting these badass titles and quotes on uneventful posts...

The path I tred behind me...

"This infernal road I walk will never be the same once I have walked it, the ground will bear the marks of my feet, the indentations caused by my weight, the sky above me will have moved on and yet the world will still forget..."

So this week I've been making my self busy when I can on Dear Esther wiki, to be honest i quite like the solitude of being there. Quite appropriate considering the game that the wiki is based around...

I think of myself currently as the "hermit" of the wiki, they will probably leave gifts for me one day but I will be too far gone to recieve them. I think... or at least hope that the users there will come back I could do with an admin there telling me if what I'm doing is right, I have several ideas I wouldn't mind discussing.

I've found things to have slowed down lately, maybe it's the depression kicking in, but I swear less is happening now... guess it's just the winter. The cold slows everything down I seem to find, especially PSN (HA I made a funny). Yeah PSN store was in "Maintenance" last night so I'm crossing my fingers hoping that The Walking Dead episode 4 comes out tonight... though it's more likely going to be a stupid call of duty wall paper for the store. (Christ I hate it when they do that...)

Speaking of The Walking Dead I saw series 3 last night, I loved it's dark atmosphere and pacing, I won't spoil any plot points for my fellow UK readers, but my main love for the episode was the prison itself. It's so intimidating, it shows how far removed the characters are when they see a place that looks like hell as home... although the mind can make a hell of heaven and a heaven of hell.

I guess that's it for today back to living for me... well you know sorta-living...

I have begun my ascent...

"I have run out of places to climb, I will abandon this body and take to the air, We will leave twin vapour trails in the air, white lines etched into these rocks, I am the aerial, In my passing, I will send news to each and every star."

I'm back, my week long... URGH hate this word "hiatus" turned into a month long retirement...

So what happened? Well nothing really, though I suspect that it's down to me being less depressed than usual and that usually means that I run out of things to write about.

So yeah I'm depressed again, huzzah! More material!

So what's new?

I played episode 3 of the walking dead game (I don't remember if I hadn't done that yet) and I've also started reading the graphic novels. I've also started recently contributing to the Dear Esther wiki since Dear Esther is one of my favourite games. Though I wrote a review on it...

Well today I've done all I need to, I'll try to post later on this week and get back into the routine of things.

Thanks

oh yeah the song

I feel this is more than appropriete