New year...

I couldn't think of a good title...

"I have toured the endless starlighttake me home! I have shattered under midnighttake me home! There are no vultures in this clearing, except the ones who brought me here and I'll no longer feed them! Take me home!"

So christmas wasn't bad this year, I got £50 worth of steam games which I just splashed out in. I had so much fun finally getting my grubby mits on Dear Esther 2012, Payday DLC and the entire GTA series.

Things have been uneventful, mainly because I'm dedicating my time to study and important things. I've given up on those who I dedicated my time to only to hear nothing from my efforts in return. I'm considering so much right now it's impossible to begin.

Just wanted to check in so you knew that I was still alive!

Bye

Feels like heaven now that I'm home...

You know, I've joined a few places over the years... I found them all to be empty, stagnent... last month I looked in a new place and found what I've always wanted. Right now, life is good...

Will it always be good? Don't know, don't care, but I remember posting a song or maybe the lyrics to the song "Heaven when we're home." I think I found home. I won't say where yet... it would be telling you something that I don't feel comfortable with yet... and anyone else who stumbles across this.

Sappy shit out of the way I have stuff to talk about, I was quite impressed with the VGAs usually I'm pissed off because souless Mcbot won the "MOST MUVING CHARACER SPWEECH AWARD!" which just pisses me off... this year though I agreed with everything which is awesome.

Also it's christmas!

The time of santachrist!

So enjoy this... awesome christmas song from Voltaire

For the great crab queen Rudolph!

I'm back... I don't know what for since I've kind of had so many outbirsts and then I went on to neglect this blog to the point where it no longer matters.

I've been somewhat busy, we have had new members at The Corrupt Forum and the UV are still kicking... the group and I (the corrupt that is) have been creating a story. This story was made by group members adding another 3 words onto he currently existing story. So it started with "he saw light," "in the woods," etc, etc, etc.

So here it is so far, I hope to finish this one day.

"He sees light, through the trees, from the barn, by the river. Where HE lives. HE who fears the river's water because of the very mean crab that stole his first born child he named Rudolph after a reindeer. Rudolph was then taken away to the crab palace to become the new crab queen of their crabtopia! He was destined to lead them INTO THE FOREST, to attack the bright white light in the barn. Because it was HE who is the crab king, who retaliated by calling forth his super lobster troopers.
Queen's crab army sharpened their pincers and prepare for crab war three. As dawn arrived they fired cannons, the crabs were building shell fields when the bombs blew a hole in the wall of the palace, killing all the children and elderly. Queen retaliated by firing cluster bombs killing many of the king's elite omega lobster heirs."

I saw a few forums do this, but I think the corrupt did the most moving one.  :)

Here's your song, now run along you little scamps!

Shaken, stirred but never moved...

"All night the buoy has kept me lucid. I sat, when I was at the very edge of despair, when I thought I would never unlock the secret of the island, I sat at the edge and I watched the idiot buoy blink through the night. He is mute and he is retarded and he has no thought in his metal head but to blink each wave and each minute aside until the morning comes and renders him blind as well as deaf-mute. In many ways, we have much in common."

OK I can't ignore the fact that I went off on one yesterday but I can't adress it... I mean how do you adress a recorded explosion of the mind?

So I thought I'd talk some more about life and stuff...

Last night the forum went down, I chased it up on the createmybb3 support forums and it turned out to be a common problem. The problem was caused by an update to improve performance, I have to admit though I thought they saw our post count and thought "nah they're dead."

I remember when it started in January and I decoded agaist makign sub forums, this was before everyone else got invited. I saw why not too long after, a forum which had plenty of posts, but they were all scattered so the place looked deserted. Even the Unwashed had that as a problem, though they did dedicate a sub forum to goats (yeah I don't get it either).

I saw the walking dead, though I wrote about that here http://thecorruptregulators.createmybb3.com/thread-61-page-25.html so yeah...

Yeah I know linking to the forums seems a bit of an assholish thing to do so that my posts are shorter, but truth be told it's to avoid spoilers for countries like the UK who don't get to see the show for another 6 months. I mean imagine what would happen if they found out that Rick turned into a sponge? Oh shit sorry!

Well I better go before I do more damage

400 miles to oblivion

"I have become convinced I am not alone here, even though I am equally sure it is simply a delusion brought upon by circumstance. I do not, for instance, remember where I found the candles, or why I took it upon myself to light such a strange pathway. Perhaps it is only for those who are bound to follow."

You know I find it more and more difficult to relate to people now, telling me about how he said this and how she said that. How their pulsing bricks insult them a lot and how they malfunction at the expense of a person's lifeline.

I find society, people, modern ideals and music.

I'll explain, being forced to be on my own for the past 5 years allows me to see everyone around me. It's impressive at how you can observe every detail of a person's life on social networking, on busses, generally sat around. Ok now I know I sound like a stalker or something so let me explain further, every person who's on a phone call yells, everyone who types practically holds their personal devices to your face so you're forced to read the bile they spew into the internet. Though whilst most look away I try (but fail) to make sense of what they write.

I find people's attitudes towards each other difficult to comprehend, the way that everyone puts on this annoying pretence of being friends as if they are posing for an invisible camera. Talking as if a copy and paste of a guide to "how to be normal in 2012," I find most people to just be set pieces. Talking heads which regurgitate whatever someone wants them to, whatever diahrea they can conjure up as a response to more garbage creating a tidal wave of complete and utter gibberish.

No one talks about anything anymore, it's all about shallow outlooks on those they know, comparing themselves to people who don't care, regurgitating things they have seen on television or in gossip magazines or in magazines or other crap dispensers.

I find society to be broken; nothing is personal to anyone anymore. No conversation is sharing an experience; no tweet is bearing the soul of anyone because they have no soul, just a blank canvas waiting to be painted on. These people are still in the womb! They have no idea what it is like to think for yourself and achieve clarity! It's all spite and tireless derailing of everything that others have built to make the world a better place! What is freedom of speech? An excuse to get back at all the 'faggots,' 'niggers' and other invalids out there (to clarify as a disclaimer, no... that's someone else's opinion not mine hence why it's in quotations.)

Why do we live in a world where people vote, not to make their lives I'll copy something I wrote on the unwashed board.

"These issues are banged out by politicians because they get votes, it satisfies the public and are an excuse to avoid talking about the future of your job or an issue that does directly affect you that you would want to hear. At the time I agreed that well this is obviously happening people care more about things that affect other people than things that immediately affect them. I mean how does gay marriage affect a heterosexual man? Unless they are campaigning to keep homosexual couples from marrying in their church which sort of makes sense, but if you are just homophobic then it has no effect on you and shouldn't sway your vote. The sad reality is that these tiny, insignificant issues sway votes...

But then I thought about it some more and went back to stage one, I've already mentioned that people will vote against their best interest to get a representative who tackles the issues they care about. I find that it goes deeper than that when you think about it... what is the point in voting? It's to get your voice across, why do you need to get your voice across and choose a party to represent your views? Because some things are going to affect you more than others. How much tax you pay for instance, where government spending goes and how you and your family are supported when it comes to the government. However, if this is the case then voting have become arse backwards in my view because people aren't voting for what immediately affects them!

If you think about what I've wrote above people will vote for homosexuals to be banned from getting hitched in a church, but what about things that effect them immediately? It's rare that I hear people who care who they vote for talk about this stuff and it's rare that the news does. Anywho down to my point, voting is meant for people to attempt to improve their own lives! Even if this was at the expense of others (such as higher tax on the rich) it would still be logical because you want the politicians to make your life better. This isn't how it works anymore, people are now voting not to make their lives better, but to make other people's lives worse. If all you care about is banning a person from doing something that has no or little effect on you then it kind of shows the broken society we live in. A world where people spitefully would vote to have their home town nuked if it meant that people couldn't have abortions.

I can't help, but feel that democracy is bad thing now I try to see it in a positive light, but to no avail. Though that is just my opinion and my opinion has gotten me thrown out of public establishments before."

I don't care if I'm alone I like it on my own, I'm free and I can think for myself! I don't want to be subjected to constantly wanting approval! I don't want to know what people do in their boring uneventful lives!

You know I came to a sad realisation the other day, imagine this scenario...

You're sat on a bus with someone you know their name and maybe said "oh are you getting off? Ok I'll stand up" or something along those lines. But you never conversed with them, never learnt anything about them... imagine after they get off the bus them going home and from that day on you getting an insight into their life. Hearing every one of their thoughts (or maybe just receiving a letter.)

Wouldn't you hate that? Well I'm living it! I have people on social networking sites who I added as "friends" because they sat in the same room with me 5 years ago! I've had more contact with them now than I ever had and I bloody hate them! Every day it's "yeah get in it's *insert whatever's "cool" here* "can't be arsed" "I hate my life because *BLAH BLAH BLAH*" "CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT WITH THE GIRLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ AND KILL ALL MY FUCKIGN BRAIN SELLZ!"

You know I could strangle these people! I don't want to know them, but this digital age makes it so! I'm tired of it really, I can't take it and it’s driving me mad!

Just take me home!

You have 29000 days to live.

Recently I had this wierd crisis where I wsa suddenly aware of how short life is, if you live up to 80 you will have lived 700800. Now when you see days as a number like that... it seems shorter and shorter the more you look at it.

You see, life is a cruel, yet giving thing people in 2012 have a better quality of life than those who lived in 1912 and they had a better quality of life than those who lived in 1812 etc. But those who live in 2112 will obviously have a better life than us so... in short you may as well have been born in 1812 for all the good it does you. The world gets better and better around you, but you cannot live long enough to see it at it's best.

It's quite funny how people say that "their day" was the best, whether "their day" was 10-100 years ago. Well they are wrong, just as you will be when you're an old fart. The fact is history confirms it the world is as hard as it is to believe, getting better and better.

The more you think on it, the crappier your position is mortality is a bitch isn't it? Irony dictates that you die of a disease that is cured and completely wiped out less than 100 years later.

Anyway in regards to myself my least favourite person on the planet...

Walking Dead episode 4 came out on PSN-SCEE last night alas this was probably my favourite episode since episode 2. This episode had a few difficult decisions to make and after finishing the episode it took me a while to get my thoughts together. I wrote my decisions down on the corrupt regualtor forums here. It's been quite fun sharing eachother's stories over the last year or so I hope anyone else who reads this can share there's.

Guess that's it for today

Bye for now

To celibrate the episode being released I think I'll have this is the song of today.

For whom the bell tolls

"Do not ask for whom the bell tolls... for when it tolls, it tolls for you!" - Chuck (The Walking Dead)

Good news everyone!

According to those lieing bastards at SCEE WD episode 4 comes out on PS3 in the EU tonight thank christ. Though knowing them... nah I'm sure they won't screw me twice...

So news; Noak found some more Walking Dead stuff it was a mini web series which... well I tore it a part in possibly the longest forum reply ever! Oh well what can you do?

There's been no significent events today... and I cannot think of anything to talk about.

I should stop wasting these badass titles and quotes on uneventful posts...